Log in

No account? Create an account
i wanna love you... [entries|friends|calendar]
your heart next to mine

I'm a Leo. I love anything that deals with music. Maybe that sounds so cliche, but it runs deep. I was raised at concerts, and parties with my parents. I'm very open to new things, and new ideas. I dream of the man who will sweep me off my feet and take me to the mountains listening to folk music all the way. My family are the most important people in my life, along with my dog. Georgia is the state I was meant to be in, ocean and mountains...enough said. My bestfriend is my sister. I have the most amazing friends any girl could have. I've been told I'm an old soul, which suits me fine.


Edit Info
Edit Friends
Edit Userpics
Edit Password
Modify Journal

This layout was created at Premade Ljs.

Userinfo Recent Entries Friends
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

06/15/06 at 10:17am]
I'm leaving this journal.
I don't like what it became.
More icon/graphic communities than actual "journals".
I wasn't getting what I needed.
And as you can tell, it's been forever since I've updated.
I don't know what the new journal will be...
There will only be a few I will add back.
Read (4) Comment

i need a little moment just to breath [Thursday
02/16/06 at 8:05pm]
I'm almost on my way to Florida. I'm not there already thanks to my dad taking forever with everything he does. I'm super excited about going, but then I'm a little weary. I know what's going to happen....

I'm going to fall in love again, like I always do.

Chris & Daniel will be there. I haven't seen either since May, and I miss them. I thought about what I'd say to both. Nothing's come to mind. I do want Daniel to know that I've never forgotten him. I've never forgotten how sweet he was to me, and how I had a crush on him for a good year before he finally got the nerve up to tell me he liked me back. I want Daniel to know that I'm sorry the timing was never right for either of us.

I just want to make out with Chris and get it over with. Haha. Okay, I need to quit that dream. But hey, I can't help it. =)

How much do you want to bet I'll get there, see Daniel, and find out he has a damn girlfriend. Just my luck. =D

Well kids, I'll see you Monday!
Happy Early President's Day!

02/14/06 at 10:09am]
Well, I was feeling better lastnight...sort of. Well enough that I went out with Justin to Dairy Queen to eat 4 of my french fries, but sit there and talk for a good hour. I had lost my voice earlier so I could hardly talk, but I wanted to see him. Theeeen I get home, and at about nine Jussy called me and I started feeling really bad again. My legs and back started hurting again, and I couldn't quit coughing. At 11:00 I went to bed. I woke up at 2:00 shivering, I was so cold I could hardly get out of bed. Nothing was keeping me warm. I had on two pairs of pants, a t-shirt and my favorite UGA hoodie, socks, a huge comforter, and another blanket from the sofa. Not only could I not quit shivering, I couldn't comfortable. I layed in the bed, shivering, until my mom got up at about 5:30. Obviously my fever had spiked again. Yea, I wasn't going to school today.

As of right now, I'm okay. I have a lot of congestion and I'm coughing like a 80 yr. old woman who's smoked for the past 40 years. I sound like a mouse because I can't talk...still.

It figures...the week before I'm supposed to go camping in Florida...I get sick. Let's all give Annabel a round of applause!
Read (3) Comment

02/13/06 at 1:42pm]
Happy Valentine's Day, everyone.

I love it when I'm sick on days like this. NOT. I got to school this morning, and I was okay, but by the middle of first period I was in a daze. My legs and back hurt, along with my chest, throat, and head. All I wanted to do was just lay my head on my desk and go to sleep. I made it through first and second period (my two hardest classes) so I wouldn't have make-up work, and I called my mom and got her to tell the attendance office I was signing out. You know Annabel is sick when she won't even eat chocolate chip cookies, or drink coke, and when she goes below the speed limit all the way home.

I got home, changed into some very comfortable clothes, doped myself up on Ibuprofen and Robitussen, and crashed on the couch. And now I'm here.

My hoodie smells like Friday night at Justin's house. I never would have thought back in 8th grade when he moved here that in highschool I would have these sort of feelings for him. It's funny how tihngs change like that. It's not like "OMG! It's Justin! I love him like sooo much!", I can't quite put my finger on it. I love how much of a "manly man" he is, and how at first he seems so cold, but as soon as you get to know him he's the sweetest guy in the world. He makes me laugh non-stop, and we have SO much in common it should be illegal. Okay, you know it's kind of crazy when your parents have the same anniversary (which is today). I "like" him....A LOT.

02/12/06 at 8:59pm]
I'm sick.
My chest feels as if it's going to explode, and I cough like I'm hacking up my lungs. It's crazy.
Good news is...

there's a new boy.
Read (1) Comment

01/28/06 at 4:12pm]
Damnit, I am so freaking bored.
Read (2) Comment

01/26/06 at 7:40pm]
I'm listening to "I'll Back You Up" (DMB), I haven't listened to this song in a couple of weeks. In my DMB world thats a freaking long time. Anyhow, this song puts me in a different place. It makes me miss Chris, and just how the air feels around him. I know I've gone on and on about him plenty of times, but I just feel that stongly about him. Like nothing could happen, like nothing back home matters...just me and him and what we're talking about, which can go from stand-up comedy shows to deadly serious conversations on life. It's amazing. I don't know what the feeling I have for him is. I guess it's just...love. I love him, like I love my parents, like I love Heather. I can never be around him for too long. I remember one day he and I sat in front of his tent (a lot of us had gone camping) all day just talking. I'm talking from like 10:00 in the morning until who knows when in the middle of the night. Wow, do I miss him, I miss our talks, and him laughing and throwing crap at me. You would think we were two people in love. Well, we are, but a different love. That love isn't allowed in our relationship. I'm too young, and he's too old, and he's got other priorities...You would think there was something between us, and maybe there is. Something between our souls that connects us and makes us feel like we do. Okay...stop it Annabel. =D

I seriously need to get some type of life. Staying at home everynight, even on nights where I SHOULD be going out gets pretty freaking old. I just don't know what to do, I don't have anywhere to go. Hopefully, I'll be going partying with Chelsea, Heather, and Sarah. I'm not sure though because my sister is coming down and I haven't seen her in almost 2 months. I miss her!

I need to do something besides get on this old thing.

So, I better be going.
Love you guys,

01/18/06 at 7:34pm]
Today was pretty good. It started off kind of yucky, but it progressively got better. I actually didn't really do that much today, seems like in every class we had like half the class period to just sit there and chill. That's always a good thing.

Heather wasn't there but for only half the day. She had to go to the docter and get a heart moniter that she only has to wear 24 hours (thankfully). But she called me tonight on her way home and she's doing good. We talked about prom, and her heart moniter, and the little bitches in jazz band.Speaking of prom, I'm thinking about asking this guy to prom. I haven't really known him all that long, well considered to how long I've known most of my friends. He's a really sweet guy, and I'm seeing the signs. I hope I am anyway. I'm just a little nervous about asking him. The only time I really see him to actually have somewhat of a conversation is at the grocery store where he works. We'll see! I'm thinking about this dress. you've got the goldCollapse )
Read (2) Comment

01/17/06 at 7:29pm]
Well, all I can say is that it's been a long two weeks. I don't even know where to start to begin to type it all out. I want to, but it seems like it won't come. I'm sorry my posts probably never hold you, and you probably just skim over them thinking "wow, this is pretty boring." It's just I'm not good with getting out things with writing. I have no one to tell though.

So here goes...

I've been on anti-depressants for almost two weeks now. I didn't even know I was depressed. I still don't think I am. I do, well did, have anxiety attacks.

Okay, this isn't what I want to talk about. This is.

want to be your loveCollapse )

12/28/05 at 9:42pm]
Today...today was long and boring. It was probably the worst day of my break. Not that it was bad, it just hasn't been as fulfilling as the others have been. I have a problem of when I'm bored to start thinking of ridiculous things, and I start scaring myself. I'm not sure why I do that. Day's like today are where I think I need a therapist. Haha. I also become restless, and bore easier because I can't find anything I really want to do. It was raining all damn day so I couldn't just go out and waste gas.

A friend of mine is moving to Alabama today, well she's probably already well on her way. I'm kind of sad about this.

Tomorrow I have to go to the Sylvan Learning center and take some test. I want to start getting tutored from there because knowing that they'll make me do my homework will help a lot. That's my whole problem. Homework, I just don't do it. It counting what test grades do doesn't help me one bit! Since I don't do my homework, I don't do well on the tests. Therefore, my grades suck ass.

And I'm really not looking forward to going back to school. This week has flown by compared to last week.
Read (1) Comment

12/27/05 at 11:51am]
I hate when you feel like you need to write something, or just get something out but when the time comes you can't. I've been doing that for probably the past three days, it's really frustrating. So, I'm just going to try right now. If it comes out, great! If it doesn't, I'll just have to find out what I really want to write.

read this if you want to be confused...Collapse )
Read (1) Comment

12/23/05 at 9:08pm]
I'm thinking of taking a break from the internet. It seems to cause me more trouble than good, and it shouldn't be that way. I think I've become dependent on it without realizing it, and it's just too much. I'm at a point where I feel I need more than the internet can give, and I know that sounds really weird but the internet is too impersonal...with everything. I need real. The internet isn't the real world, how will I experience "the real world" if I'm on here all day?

I don't think I'll leave completely because I do like writing in my LiveJournal when I can these days, and I do like to talk to friends from school on AIM, but other that I think I'm giving up. No myspace, no xanga. It's just gotten to be too much, and it's something I don't feel is right anymore.

And another thing, my grades are suffering horrendously! When I get back to school after the break I'm going to have to buckle down if I want to graduate with my class, or go to prom, or even march next year (which if I couldn't, my life would end).

So, I'll be around here. Occasionally.

Love ya kids,
Read (1) Comment

12/23/05 at 11:12am]
1) Was 2005 a good year for you? It was a mix of the good and the bad. It was better than 2004 though.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year? DISNEY WORLD!

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? School.

4) Where were you when 2005 began? In my yard

5) Who were you with? My dad, my brother, the neighbors, Dan, Zach, and Drew

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? Probably same place

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? My family, hopefully.

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? I don't even think I made one

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? Sort of.

10) Did you fall in love in 2005? Absolutely NEGATIVE!

11) If yes, with who? Well, I'm always in love with my family, and Dave Matthews Band....muwhahaha.

12) If yes, do they know? Well, my family does, and DMB should know seeing how much of my moeny and parent's money go to them.

13) Are you still in love with them? YES!

14) You regret it? uhhhh....no.

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? Yes indeedy.

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? oh yea!

17) Who are your favorite new friends? Wow, I made too many to have favorites. But Heather is my favorite friend EVER!

18) What was your favorite month of 2005? June through September

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? no

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? One of two

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? Yes

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? ooooooooooooooooooooooh yeeeeeeaa

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? Wow, I saw so many I don't even know.

24) What was your favorite song from 2005? DON'T CHA!!! hahaha

25) What was your favorite record from 2005? Weekend on the Rocks--DMB hell yea!

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? DAVE MATTHEWS BAND! bahahahah!

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? DMBDMBDMBDMB.

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005? maybe

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? nope

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005? that's a big zero.

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? errrr...not that I can think of.

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? I can't think of one.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? I don't know.

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? Not really.

36) How much money did you spend in 2005? HAH! Like I can keep up with all of that!

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005? Errrr....I don't know, I'm such a loser!

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? hahaha, we won't go there.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be? Nothing. I wouldn't change a thing.

40) What are your plans for 2006? school, school, school, more concerts.

12/17/05 at 9:44pm]
I know it's been awhile kids, but for good reasons of course. Well, really only one reason, and it's really not that good. School. That's all I have time for anymore! But thankfully Friday was our last day until January 3rd! Woo! I'm super excited! Nothing much has happened in the past two weeks, I've kind of got a crush on someone who says "he doesn't want a girlfriend right now", but still acts like he likes me, I probably failed all of my exams I had on Thursday and Friday, and I'm failing a class, maybe even two. =\

Tomorrow night I'm "dog sitting" with Heather, and also on Monday night. I'm a little nervous about it because we'll be by ourselves in a house neither of us have ever really been to. It's only about 5 minutes away from her house, and a really good friend of ours just lives across the street so hopefully we'll be okay.

Well, I don't really have much else to say! Take it easy!

You all should go to my xanga (http://www.xanga.com/could_ilove_you) and my myspace (http://www.myspace.com/all_you_want)
Read (2) Comment

12/06/05 at 8:52pm]
I just want to fall in love!
is that too much to ask?

11/28/05 at 9:40pm]
[ mood | okay ]

I decided I needed to update about something. I guess I could squeeze something out.

Let's see, I'll start from when I was on my way to school this morning. I only live about 5 minutes away from the highschool (depending if I catch the red light or not, this morning I did). Anyway, I'm about to pull on to the highway when I realize that the arrow on my gas thing was on the LAST red square. I started panicking! My guage is weird, when I was on the bypass it looked like I was about to run out, but when I got on the actual school road it went up over the first big red square. So, I pull into the parking lot, park in my usual spot, next to Alex (somehow we always get there at the same time...weird.) I told Alex about my personal gas crisis, and he laughed. Got to love it. We walk up to the school, me rolling my tuba in it's case behind me, Alex laughing at me...still. Then after brisk walking in the semi-cold air, I'm out of breath and go to my locker. Do the usual stuff at the locker, then go back and talk with Alex. After awhile Jonathon Scotch-Tape shows up and we discuss Santa Hats, Christmas Parades, Stevie Ray Vaughn, Alex's flowing locks, and why I'm failing Algebra 2. Good stuff. Then I head on to first period (algebra 2).

Algebra 2 consisted of the normal Algebra 2 stuff, such as numbers, variables, me not knowing what I'm doing, copying from Courtney's paper, Jeffrey copying from my copied paper, and dissing Bonnie. Ten minutes into the class I realize I REALLY do not want to be here, and lay my head on the book while Courtney reminds me why I'm not doing so hot in there. I shot her a bird, she called me a whore. Finally, at 8:40 the bell for 2nd period rings (chemistry). Chemistry was decent today. I actually knew what I was doing, I did my homework over the break, Justin flirted with me like always, and we made fun of Mr. Tomlinson's belly. Mr. T also told a great story like always, but I can't remember it. Go Me! Theeeen 3rd period (band). Somehow I ended up in the freshman band class, when I'm supposed to be in the frickin' SENIOR class! To sum it all up in a few words: sucks, lame, boring, I've already done everything they are learning 10 times over. Then my favorite class Literature with Mrs. Samuel! We're reading something by Washington Irving and Mrs.Samuel gets all into it, and it's just great. We always have great discussions in there about everything! That's where I realized in just ONE semester I will finally be a senior. Next was Sociology, the power went out, and stayed out all during lunch (where I talked to Jonathon Scotch-Tape again =D), the rest of the class and over to the next class. Nothing else exciting happened there. US History Ms. Whatley told us to pretend we were Abraham Lincoln and write in the dark because we already were. Power came back on the last 5 minutes, so we had enough time to get our books and go to seventh period, get really into class just for the power to go out again. French in the dark is fun!

I was supposed to have private lessons after school today but I'm think I'm getting bronchitus again, so I told Lundin that I had to go home. And plus I needed to go get some gas!

I wrote a letter to a soldier in Iraq. That's my new thing, I want soldiers to know that there are people who care about them. I'm sending it out tomorrow. My cousin is over there, along with a friend of mine.

And here I am now, running out of things to say, though I think I did okay tonight. Just rambling though.


11/26/05 at 11:56pm]
//Series 1 - The Usual
-- Name: Annabel
-- Birthdate: August 3rd
-- Birthplace: Macon
-- Current Location: the computer chair!
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Hair Color: brown
-- Righty or Lefty: lefty!!
-- Zodiac Sign: leo!
-- Innie or Outtie: innie

// Series Two - Describe
-- Your heritage: Irish and German
-- The shoes you wore today: I didn't wear any!!
-- Your hair: afroish if I don't straighten it
-- Your eyes: big and blue
-- Your weakness?: boys, and dogs
-- Your fears: being a complete failure in life
-- Your perfect pizza: just pepperoni and cheese!
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: meet Dave Matthews

// Series Three - What Is
-- Your most overused phrase on aol\aim\icq: "lol"
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "Damn it! I don't want to school, and I would kill to sleep until 8:00!!"
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes, smile, and hands
-- Your best physical features: my smile, and eyes
-- Your bedtime: whenever I'm tired
-- Your greatest accomplishment: hmm...Living.
-- Your best memory: being little.

// Series Four - Do You
-- Smoke: uh NO! I'm cool like that.
-- Cuss: more than I'd like to
-- Sing well: sort of...
-- Take a shower everyday: maybe even twice a day!
-- Do you think you've been in love: I'm in love everyday
-- Want to go to college: of course
-- Like high school: oh no
-- Want to get married: Indeed
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys: I sure do!
-- Believe in yourself: For the most part.
-- Get motion sickness: Depends, I can't ride in the back of the bus.
-- Think you're attractive: Sometimes I am.
-- Think you're a health freak: I have tendencies
-- Get along with your parents: Yeeeeess
-- Like thunderstorms: Nooooo
-- Play an instrument: 3 in fact.

// Series Five - In The Past Month, Did/Have You
-- Drank alcohol: Yes
-- Smoke(d): No
-- Done a drug: No
-- Made Out: No
-- Go on a date: Sort of
-- Go to the mall: Yes
-- Been on stage: Not yet
-- Been dumped: Nope
-- Gone skating: No
-- Made homemade cookies: Yes
-- Been in love: Yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: It's WAY too cold!
-- Dyed your hair: Nope
-- Stolen anything: Not that I can remember

// Series Six - Have You Ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: Maybe
-- If so, was it mixed company: Could have been....
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
-- Been caught "doing something": Nope, I'm sneaky like that
-- Been called a tease: DUH! haha
-- Gotten beaten up: Nope
-- Shoplifted: Nope
-- If so, did you get caught: .......

// Series Seven - The Future
-- Age you hope to be married: sometime after college
-- Numbers and Names of Children: No more than two, Gabriel and Abigail
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: In my church
-- What age do you want to die: When it's time
-- Where you want to go to college: UGA
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: music director
-- What country would you most like to visit: Ireland and Africa

// Series Eight - The Present
-- Current Clothes: T-shirt, and wind pants
-- Current Mood: a little bored, a little lonely, and a little happy
-- Current Taste: sweet tea
-- Current Hair: ponytailing it
-- Current Annoyance: nothing this moment
-- Current Smell: I farted....okay okay NOT REALLY!
-- Current thing you ought to be doing: practicing my stupid ass scales
-- Current Desktop Picture: DAVE!
-- Current Favorite Groups: DMB always and forever, Panic always and forever, annnnd Moonshine Still, and Blues Traveler, OH! And Dispatch!
-- Current Book: A Million Little Pieces
-- Current CD In Player: DMB; The Gorge first cd
-- Portable CD Player: Some DMB
-- Current Worry: I need to do my scales
-- Current Favorite Celebrity: Dave.
-- Current Crush: I'd tell ya if I had one.

11/22/05 at 6:27pm]
Hah. I love how my "bestfriend" forgets about me.

We're going to my sister's house tomorrow for Thanksgiving. Should be fun, I'm excited.

"And I will walk with you
Using the stars as guides
On a homeward path we go
Knowing our times is nigh
I, I will walk...to be with you
All that I've done, and all I say
To be with you..."

--Dispatch (Walk With You)

Such a beautiful song!
Read (2) Comment

11/20/05 at 8:28pm]
I'm in a Christmas mood tonight, so I'm listening to my favorite Christmas CD. Georgia people are crazy, some already have their Christmas trees/lights out. It's not even Thanksgiving yet!

I'm in a happy mood right now. I just made a new friend, that I've known for most of my life. Weird, I know. His grandmother lives down the street from me, so I would see him whenever he would come over to her house. He added me on myspace, and I knew I had seen him before. So, he's been on my myspace for MONTHS! And tonight, it hit me! It's Christian from down the road! So I messaged him telling him that I finally realized who he was, and fortunately he was on so we started talking. He's a pretty awesome guy!

It's crazy what Myspace brings....friends, stalkers, haha. Gotta love it though!

Well, I guess I'll go!
See you kids later!
Read (4) Comment

11/13/05 at 6:43pm]
Heath finally has a girlfriend.

Good for him!

Kind of bitter sweet about it, I think more sweet though. =D

[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]